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it's michele :) (absenceofeye)   
04:56pm 13/08/2004
mood: pleased
this is michele...i'm updating alex's lj while he's at work because he's awesome and i love him. haha ladies. he's totally mine. ;) jk lol. but yeah alex is wonderful and perfect.


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best quote i've heard in awhile   
07:58pm 07/06/2004
mood: contemplative
only those who suffer can grow into true beauty

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12:33am 29/04/2004

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02:39pm 28/03/2004
mood: chipper
oh hey ya remember the former singer of The Apex Theory...hes got a project called Ontronik...go to ontronik.com and listen to the songs...its pretty sweet..very relaxing

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shes shakin like a revolution   
05:12pm 10/02/2004
mood: cold
do yourself a favor and read the lyrics off of the cd Burn Piano Island, Burn by the Blood Brothers

fucking fantastic

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04:52pm 23/12/2003
mood: contemplative
sometimes people dont realize they're doing things that they do for the best of others

i didnt realize it at the time but perhaps me making my mistake today was for the best...this way things are easier to get over

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asleep again   
02:36pm 23/12/2003
mood: sick
note to self and anyone:

desperation clouds your judgement...take a step back and breathe at all times...and jealousy is no way to get someone to love you

we cant turn back time so we have to do it right the first time...but its hard to be perfect and avoid mistakes

if theres anything i'm learning is i'm not always dealing with my problems the right way...you can never be sure of the future...cherish love when you have it..cherish your friends ALWAYS....deal with problems your own way not how others do

life is one big lesson...and i'm learning it all very quickly right now...i just wish it didnt hurt so much

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11:16pm 19/12/2003
mood: crushed
disregard the last post

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10:01pm 19/12/2003
  if anyone knows of a scholarship that would give me enough money to go to a college in another state for free pretty much...i'd appreciate it  

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10:44am 13/12/2003
mood: good
the photo shoot was postponed due to my having to go to a birthday party and the guys being all hungover

so i'll be here all day till 530....atleast i can shower and talk to my michele when she gets home

does anybody realize how truely wonderful the movie The Gate is....it has 80s written all over it (as it WAS filmed in the 80s) and its just so great....i swear one day in a song we're gonna have a clip from that movie and i want it to be "but Terry, this is a record album"

80s movies were actually pretty good...i think thats my favorite part of that decade....that and the quality cartooning...they dont make cartoons like those anymore...you cant beat ghost buster and tmnt

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12:58am 13/12/2003
mood: sore
my knees are all cramped up right now and it hurts...fuck em both

tomorrow i'm pretty busy (well tech. today)...i have to go to the Reinhardts and take band pics for them because i'm the only person in the world with a digital camera...ok i'm not the only one but i'm the only one readily available and they came to me and asked me and i said yes...so at 1:30 PM i have to be there and take pics...then at 5:30 i have to go to my cousins birthday party for pizza and hopefully that wont be longer than 2-3 hours....and i didnt tell Michele i'm doing this stuff...i was going to but she never came back so i couldnt...so hopefully she doesnt get mad at me

as for the pics i dunno how thats gonna turn out...i imagine its going to be group and individual but dunno where specifically...i guess i'll find out tomorrow...hopefully it doesnt take forever

tell ya the truth i dont even really feel like doing it but i said i would so i have to...i mean i'll do it but i dont really wanna do it tomorrow...i just wanna chill then go eat pizza and talk to my girl...is that so much...eh well...it happes

i love you michele

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the heart and the shape   
02:45pm 09/12/2003
mood: clean
i love this song...i'm excited about the new cd

so today was my music fundamentals test...i think i did well...might have screwed up on a few parts but i'm pretty confident i passed...later i have my music business exam...that should be tons of fun....sarcasm yes....but it cant be too hard....most of it is common sense...i mean how can you not know what a booking agent does? not like i'm gonna say he/she is the bands librarian

i'll study anyway...just to be sure

sometimes i really like how i write...i dunno...it just sounds so good sometimes...

i think its not morally possible to fail a paper that has a title page with an old indian man playing a sitar intensly on it...i mean come on...think about that old guy...hed probably cry...do you want to make an old indian man cry?!

well i suppose thats about it

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05:27pm 05/12/2003
mood: happy
sorry ladies...i know how you all got excited that i was single but Michele and i are back together

not that anybody but her wanted me anyway

but yes we are back together and i'm happy

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to do list:   
10:06pm 01/12/2003
mood: determined
get retainers for eyebrow and lip piercings

call tim hortons for an interview of some sort

get my license

claim my moms car as my own

write more

read more

sing more

get my new PA/mic

get school in order--well for next semester because it seems late for this one

for really real this time...real real yeah we'll make it really real

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05:03pm 01/12/2003
  did you ever get the heavy foreboding feeling that just when you thought things couldnt get worse they will...that the thing you thought would never happen does and when it does you dont know how to feel about it...you are upset yet not because you saw it coming....but who knows if its really gonna pan out that way....i sure as hell dont....but what can ya say...either things turn out how everyone said or this will be another thing to laugh at a few years from now

i'll pull through no matter what...i swear to all of you reading this

i cant wait to get on stage...it might shock some people how much emotion i have to release when i get there....dont worry about it Matt...we'll show everyone what we're all about

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11:49am 30/11/2003
mood: indescribable
i want to update but i really dont know what to put here...i cant put to words how i feel....christmas is going to be one gaping hole for me....i hope i get a job so i can not just sit home and think about everything thats going wrong...

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03:58pm 24/11/2003
mood: angry
why is it every time you really need something to work it suddenly stops....AIM for instance....and the fact my computer takes way too long to restart and boot up

UGH! i hate computers

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03:44pm 24/11/2003
mood: embarrassed
ignore that last entry....i'm slow

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03:19pm 24/11/2003
mood: confused
what was the point of having me call then getting off the phone 2 min later? and not even answering my question and basically ignoring what i say?

happy 15 month to you too i guess

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05:46pm 23/11/2003
mood: frustrated
66-73 lighting bolts dodged....then hit....ARGH!

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